If God will answer this prayer....

What does HE have in store for me?

As you may know things are very stressful for me and my family. I've always prayed. I don't think I ever really prayed correctly until maybe now. I'm sure I still don't have it down, but I've become a more faithful prayer.

I prayer for my mom and healing for her weary body daily. I pray for protection of my family. I pray for financial guidance and a lot of other things.

I often wonder if it is necessary to pray for the same thing daily. Sometime I may leave something off, in fear as it may become a more routine prayer than and actual prayer from the heart.

Today our dog ran off and I know what this dog means to Chad. I'm also aware of how much stress he is under and adding the factor of a lost dog too it, just isn't how I want to end my day. So I called for Jeb and I called for Jeb and I called for Jeb. Still nothing.

So I stopped and prayed. Lord, please let this dog come home before Chad gets home from work. Lord, I know he doesn't need the extra stress. Please send him home. Amen!

So I called for Jeb and called for Jeb and called for Jeb. Still nothing, and then 5 minutes before Chad gets home, here comes Jeb.

Praise The Lord! And I prayed again thanking for sending Jeb home! And then it occurred to me. If He will send my dog home. Just what will He answer if I pray. I know that He Answers prayers on His timing, but it RESTORED my faith to PRAY for anything.

I told Santa no! Guess she was too good this year!

I tried and tried to get Anna to pass on the Easy Bake Oven. Oh no, she had to have it. Santa thought she was very good and left her this special little toy that really is a lot of work. So far she has made chocolate chip cookies that never got done, but she thought the dough was good and tonight she made cupcakes that were red velvet with strawberry icing with sprinkles. She and Collin loved them.

Update on mom. She had her scans today. She is exhausted. Praying for good results on Tuesday!

Just another day in paradise, not!

Well this year has already tested me. Ugh!!!!! How much more could I possibly take today? Only The Lord knows, I guess he knows I can take a lot.

Mom is about the same today. Each day she seems to lose more hope. She has scans tomorrow and I'm praying they are clear and the signs of cancer is less than the scans before.

It's hard to see her hurt and not feel well. She is such a strong woman and each day she seems to want to get weaker.

I'm not sure how much of this emotional roller coaster I can stand! I've started a prayer chain on Facebook and my Sunday school class. Lord please hear our cries!

The Year to Survive-2013

Welcome 2013! Typically, Chad and I make new year resolutions. We might keep them and we might not. We usually never remember what they are by the time we are making new ones, so what's the point, right?

Well it is something we have always done and probably will always continue to do.

This year we decided that our resolution would be to just SURVIVE! To survive physically and emotionally through our daily life. Chad put it just to make it through without going insane.

Chad fights daily to survive through the business. He works hard to resolve problems before the even happen. He fights emotionally to be a good son, husband, and father. All this everyday takes a huge toll on his mind and body.

Me on the other hand, is helping my mom to survive to beat this battle of cancer. Everyday it is a battle. A battle of the unknowns. I never imagined all the challenges cancer patients go through. I try to fight for her with knowing that I still am the daughter, wife, and mother. I have a lot of roles to play. There are a lot of times I feel torn between what comes first! Home, work, other obligations! I just don't know a lot of the times!

So with all that being said, bring it on 2013! We are ready to SURVIVE!